The Beast

The beast clawed the flesh of the white feathered creature. A pool of blood on the pavement. The flesh was being ripped apart from the bones, the red eyes were dull, long time lost its shine. The whiskers of the beast tingled as it sensed the presence of three other being watching it savoring the blessing of the day.

The feathers were slowly falling apart - some were covered by blood, dripping as it was moving smoothly as the soft wind blew. The strangers kept standing there, looking at the cruelty of nature. The pink flesh was chewed to bits as the beast swallowed the meat with triumphant face.

"Kesian burung tu," said one of the boys.

"Kakak tak buat," I said involuntarily.

"Tau," they said in unison.

Smirking, I walked away from the cat that was eating the pigeon.

Ditched Songs, New Ones and The Sequences (Itinary)

27th May 2009

1) Mati Hidup Kembali - Butterfinggers

2) Save The Hero - Beyonce Knowles (Japan SE)

3) Only Hope - Mandy Moore OST A Walk To Remember

4) So Close - Jon Mclaughlin

5) Broken Strings - James Morrison Ft. Nelly Furtado

6) Remembrance - Britney Spears

7) Rapuh - Agnes Monica / youtube cover by Gamaliel

8) Lucky - Jason Mraz Ft. Colbie Calliet

9) Unfaithful - Rihana

10) You Belong To me - Jason Wade

11) Thinking of You - Katy Perry

12) Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna

13) Imperfect - US

dont feel like typing it down...

the video should say it all....

Bencinta

You know how difficult love is, you hate them and at the same time you love them too much it kills the very foundation of your trust of love...

Benarkan ku 'tuk berbicara...
Bicara terus ke hati mu... Hati mu...
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu

We both say

I don't really think it is just us, we think we are the cutest couple on the surface of the earth. Other people think of that too. We are hyper loving when the tide is okay. But we can be really rough in times when the tide is really high - tsunami like. But, the truth is, sometimes, the thought kills and shattered the things you believe in. Emotion.

Before 29th of May

In random order...

1) Rapuh - Agnes Monica / youtube cover by Gamaliel

2) Broken Strings - James Morrison Ft. Nelly Furtado

3) I Surrender - Celine Dion

4) Only Hope - Mandy Moore OST A Walk To Remember

5) Save The Hero - Beyonce Knowles (Japan SE)

6) Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna

7) You Belong To me - Jason Wade

8) Lucky - Jason Mraz Ft. Colbie Calliet

9) Mati Hidup Kembali - Butterfinggers

10) Remembrance - Britney Spears

11) True - Ryan Cabrera

12) Unfaithful - Rihana

Revision

My other sister, one that I don't expose much in the entries before, was told that I used to have a very basic keyboard class. So, as I was going through the routine of teaching the kids in the art class, I went to the gluing counter where she was petrified there to glue stuff. I acted as if I was thinking of helping her, touching the craft pieces, in-lined to be glued. She was stressed out. Sigh. I haven't had the chance to say anything, she flipped her straight, red hair and looked right into my eyes. "What do you want?" Aiza asked.

"Hehehe," I replied.

"Cepat laa cakap...," She said, but her face is nothing close to rage but it was more of curiousity.

"I teringat i ade keyboard lame, but the cable is broken. Do you know where is the nearest Yamaha Centre?" I asked.

"There is one at The Curve," she said. And I swear I could hear my other sister, ANNA, said, "There is one in Ampang Point,"

"I don't know you play keyboards," Aiza said, her face brightened.

"Once upon a time long time ago," I continued."Even if the thing is fixed I don't even remember how to play it or read the notes. I will definitely take 10 000 years to read the a line of music notes,"

"I can tutor you. No problem there," She said and I smiled.

SMSes...

People always asked me why I don't SMS them or initiate the conversation through texting. So hear are a few reasons that I have come up with:

1) I don't want to start an SMS only to be brushed off because they are busy or in the middle of a date or in a major preparation of a project, they promise to text you afterward, do you think they do? 10 percent of them do that the rest... Sigh... So why initiate? Let them initiate it first so you don't put much hopes on it.

2) You are super busy you forget. The next time you check your inbox is when it reaches 95%. Only then you realize that this person said your pay is in and you haven't even collect the cheque to cash it IF you don't erase the SMSes in bulk like : Delete all read messages.

3) IF you have a secret lover (yea2 whatever) and you are afraid to be found out, the best thing to do is not to initiate. Let them come find you. Or you can always initiate the end a.k.a the one time SMS only: "MY bf is here with me. CAN'T text rite now. DO NOT reply, I repeat: DO NOT reply this SMS.

4) They don't prioritize you, so why should you?

5) Why waste your money?

The end! wink2...

3 bullets...

My job scope requires me to hop from one place to the other in 3 seconds - just kiddin. Today I wore my Cheong-sam (a short one, made of silk, red in colour, body fitting)and I wore my gladiator... and my short skirt... I know, It looks funny. I just wanted to be a bit preppy today. Sigh. 3 bullets and a mission. The mission was canceled and I was tired. That's all about it. No stepping on a lizard or anything funny. Sigh again. Boring. Sigh again. Hahaha...

The Lizard...

"Kakak tu pijak cicak tuh laa," Two boys ran frantically to the sound of POP and to the sight of a lizard jerking at the pain of being crushed (on its head) at the end of its lifetime.

"Shit! damn kids..." I trailed off in my mumble.

"Kakak, tgk kat cicak tu. Kesian die," said one of the boys as they came closer to take a closer look at the soon-enough-carcass lizard. They squatted down, looking at it jerked with the tail wriggling detached from the body.

"Jahat laa kakak nie," said the other one. I stopped walking, turned around, full body. I straighten up my blue shirt from U2, trotting with this determined face in my TSC black heels and office pants from PDI. I tighten my necktie and looked at the boys. They were still squatting down, experiencing the few last seconds before the lizard became carcass. I squatted down with them (one knee touched the ground) in the middle of the lobby. I looked at both of them right into their eyes, hoping to get a grip on their souls, I mumbled while looking from the kids to the lizard:

"Tu laaa... kalau lintas jalan tak tgk kiri kanan, nanti jadik cam cicak nie. Nak ke?" I looked back at them. They seemed terrified. With a wicked and evil smile, I got up back on my two feet brushing off my shoulder (there were dandruff there), turned around, walked away with a loud sound of my clanking shoes, looked back at them and watched them ran away.

In my head I asked a question: Am I that terrifying? I laughed. But then I realized I don't wanna be crushed down by Mrs. N as I am already late for work - Yikes!