It's time to stop and let the world moves around you.

I trotted down the vast walkway of City Centre with my high-heeled gladiator shoes in black which I bought in a flee market last weekend, with my short black skirt, a white shirt from G2000 Women, a red neck tie made of silk and my sunglasses tugged on my head with my wild curl hair pony tailed. My mission was to pay the phone bill; ashamed to say that it was barred this morning when I intended to wish my hub good morning and all. It frustrated me. It seems like I am easily frustrated by things all around me these days. I have no idea why; If you think its PMS, than think again.

At one point of the past few days I was really stressed. I feel that the world is clinging on my back that I have to drag it everywhere I go. It annoys me and yesterday was the real blow. The day I have 8 appointments in The Administrative Centre where I have to commute by a bus and a bullet and it took ages for every one of them to actually be punctual enough to be there on time - which added up the already high level of stressed. Fortunately I had the privilege to walk from one government office to the other. That makes me a bit happy, indulging the beauty of the surrounding and take in as much sun as possible there. I love the lake. It is soothing. My view was reverted to the dream house that I always wanted, a small pond with scented flowers and trees surrounding my little cottage.

But than again that fantasy made me tense again. There are many things that I really wanted but never the chance to have it. But when one actually comes, it is ridiculous to go for it. At the sudden realization, I viewed people that surround me, they are getting what they want, although not all but most of it. Edmund is getting married soon, and we are discussing about the date for engagement and the hall has been booked. Hub got the chance of stardom when he was selected to be in CLEO's 50 Most Eligible Bachelor - although he did not win any title but the exposure is quite awesome. My mom is needed in a social project and I know she feels good that people actually need her.

Sigh, I turned into the telco store, and went straight to the deposit machine, pound my finger on the touch-screen machine and inserted 4 bills of 50. The machine took time to actually count the money and it said something on the screen, something unfamiliar. It said: "please take rejected notes". I was half cursing. I canceled the transaction and she a nearby telco personnel.

"Excuse me," I said.

"Yes, miss, how can i help you?" he said politely.

"My bills were rejected by the machine, is there anyway that I can change the notes?" I asked, trying my best to remain calm.

"I'm sorry miss you will have to change it at any of other store as we are using 80% online system which means we don't have cash," He explained.

So before I slapped him right on his left cheek, I stormed out of the facility and searched a convenient store. But then, I remembered there's a bank nearby and I tried my luck depositing the bills into my account, it went in in less that one minute. I grunted to myself. I stepped out of the line and line - up to withdraw the money and I was happy when I finally walked out of the bank with the cash in my hand. line up again at the deposit machine and this time around they were accepted.

I headed for the bullet and while in the bullet I think about the world that is on my back. I know I can't have everything I want or wish I want, but to this extend, I began to wonder. What if, I say to myself and look how it goes, I lit up, I say to myself: It's time to stop and let the world moves around me. I am almost there of taking actions I don't wanna take, but that's life right?